Long Update

I realized today in the shower, yes the shower! It is my only place to think, that all my posts lately have been mostly pictures and not a lot of talking. So I will try to update you all on our life, if anyone really reads this, who knows!

Lets start with Ben. He is growing up way too fast but is very health so I like that. At his two month check up he was in the 88% for weight so that is really good for being an early baby. He is incredibly well behaved and sleeps well. Lately he is only waking up once at night to eat so I sure hope that continues. He is starting to be very alert and checking things out around him.

Michael is slowly progressing with his speech. Sometimes it feels like he is never going to learn to talk but I have to stop and remind myself how far he has come and just be patient. He does a few signs and is starting to babble a little. He still prefers to grunt and point at things to let me know what he wants and that is what we are trying to get him to stop doing. Other than the speech he is doing very well growing up into a sweet little mama's boy!

Evelynn is still obsessed with elephants, no surprise there. She is going to be sad when I tell her no elephants at preschool. Yes preschool! My baby is starting preschool in August, isn't that crazy? She has non stop energy all the time and I have got to figure out how to get some for myself.

Dave is coming home in 28 days!!! He has enjoyed himself but is really ready to come home now. He is tired of being around dumb boys all the time and no family. He is doing amazing in all of his classes and will probably graduate with honors. Then we are hoping he will get a full time job with the guard, pray for that!

Now I guess on to me. I can say now that I am doing a lot better than a few weeks ago. I am surprised that I am putting this out in the open but I have really been suffering from a lot of postpartum depression and having a very hard time this past month. But with the help of my doctor and some great friends I am doing better. Not 100%, but better. The weather helps a lot. It is nice to get out of the house. I am amazed at how much I have grown since Dave left. I never thought I would be able to get through this but I have. I am not saying it has been easy at all, in fact it has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I have never experienced so much pain, heartache, loneliness or trials as I have these past months. But through it I have gained so much strength, faith and made some great friendships. I have also learned to rely on the Lord and accept help from others. I have had so many women tell me that they could never do what I am, but really, you never know what you are capable of until you are put in that situation. Trust in the Lord and He will help you get through it.