I am tired of...
...raising 3 kids on my own
...doing all the bills and everything else
....cleaning and cleaning and cleaning
...having no down time
...screaming kids
...screaming mommy
....a daughter that doesn't listen
....having to ask for help with everything
....some people that say they will come help and then never show up
...sleeping alone
...having no one to talk to at night
...no sleep
...being exhausted all the time
...going to the doctor
....people not understanding
...crying
...being alone
...saying I am ok when I am not
...trying to act tough
I am just ready for this to be over
2 comments:
I'm so sorry!!!!! If we lived in the same state I would totally take your kids for you and take them all to the park so you could get some much needed sleep! When does Dave come home? Is it possible to have a friend or sibling to stay with you? One thing that a sister in my mom's ward did for me was set up 5 days of babysitting so I can visit Anya during that time. I can't tell you what a HUGE weight it lifted off of my shoulders! And I also HATE WITH A PASSION asking for help!!!!!!! But maybe your visiting teachers or relief society president can do something? You have a ward family and since you have no blood family around, they should pick up the slack.
I will pray that you can bear this! I really know how exhausting it is to have kids 24/7 and not be able to catch up on... well, anything. And come June, it's going to happen to me all over again, but this time it's with a baby in the NICU. So I'm not going to say that it gets better cuz it won't until you have Dave home again. But I can completely empathize with you!
PS one thing that really helped me actually ASK for help was realizing that Heavenly Father wants to help us every day with everything. And he does that through the service of others. It's still hard sometimes to ask, but I know that what I'm personally going through right now is so much bigger than ANYONE would be able to handle alone. And the same thing goes for you! It totally sucks having your husband be away and not even be able to talk to him. And is sucks even more that you have 3 young kids who act out right now because they miss him as much as you do. And that is why you need to ask for help. No one would ever judge you for that. And if they do, well then, life has just been way, WAY too easy for them!
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